25 May 2006

Psalm 119:92
If your law had not been my delight,
       I would have perished in my affliction.


The above is my past and my prayer. unfortunately, i often forget what my delight is and suffer under my own disobedience and forgetfulness. it's not just affliction, something spurred by an outside force, but it's "my" affliction...my psyche searing into my life, through every facet. but it is His words that should be infiltrating all those hidden places.

as i struggle to find community and acceptance in this bustling city, i am reminded that i have choices, and that i am being humbled daily to one day blossom into something that God has fasioned me to be. it seems that we have many moments of bloom that occur throughout life...those epiphane type of moments where we feel like we've arrived in something special, accomplished something great or have all the wonderful things we've always dreamed of. for those times, i gladly trudge through the affliction. it produces in me something so much greater.

6 comments:

Mike said...

"it seems that we have many moments of bloom that occur throughout life...those epiphane type of moments where we feel like we've arrived in something special"

tillich calls those Kiaros.

the time is right, we are right, the circumstances are right.

even now in your struggle you could be in a Kiaros. a momment of perfect timing and mindset in which God may interject some bit of wisdom, or redefine Himself to you through your experience.

good luck in finding community - that is with out a doubt an essential.

Drew B Moser said...

ableknife--thanks for the rec on mckinley. I have a copy of his book, and it's in my ever growing stack of 'to reads'. peace and love, drew

jillymae said...

thanks for stopping by my blog. indeed, you will enjoy reading Miller. his ability to be vulnerable without shame is beautiful. he pushes you to seek your own truth, too.

press on, sister. Isaiah 58:11

Amy-Jo said...

Thanks for the suggestion of Rick McKinley...my husband has been reading it---I'll go for it now too. And we just came from San Diego last week---finishing up doing a student camp there. I'm jealous that you live there---it was awesome. So yes I saw Rob but you live in San Diego... Thanks for writing.

Jasmin said...

Hi, thanks for stopping by my blog...looks like I'll join the fun and pick up that Mckinley book you recommended.

God-paved road said...

May God bless you, Ableknife, and may your insight grow to a great disciple. Thanks for the comment and I'll ttyl.